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So today's blog I want to tell a story about my life as my lecturer said I can write anything I want for this week.
First of all, I'm sorry if my life story is not as interesting as yours but this is the life I'm living. Since a kid, I have had a dream, dream that some lucky day my dreams will come true. I dream of living a happy life every time, but sometimes things do not always go like we want. For me, it always goes vice versa. When I was a kid, I dream to be a Doctor or Surgeon because I really love helps people especially people in need. It started when I saw people in Palestine suffering on television since I was a kid. It really touched my inner heart to become a Doctor and help them. Some people said you don't need a Doctor to help them but you can be a millionaire to help them by providing them food and so on. So what I think about this is, I want to use all my body parts in Malay we said "tulang empat kerat" to help them. That is my perception about dreaming to be a Doctor.
Not to forget since I was 7 y/o I think, I help my mom taking care of my grandmother who was a cancer survivor and my mom always praised me because I look like I'm pro at cleaning up the feces, put some medicine powder on it and so on. for me when I grow up definitely when my grandmother passed away π I was impressed in myself yeah 7 years old girl until I was like 10y/o maybe I'm doing that. so yeah I actually really love doing that no force, I willingly love to help, also I was sad looking at her crying every day in front of me and looking at my mother also do not know how to help because pain cant is share obviouslyπ Starting from that also, I want to be a Doctor because I enjoying doing that and of course because I do not want another people to face the same thing like my late grandmother had. But yeah sometimes what we want is not good for us. I just follow the path that Allah put me on now.
When I become older, I can't deny the facts that I love speaking and giving a lecture. In primary and secondary school, I always take part in public speaking, debate because I really love arguing with people about facts, giving them a lecture. So when I thought about this, I was like, I want to be a lawyer because I love to protect my stand if I know it is right and I also like to protect other people if they are rights. My parents are really against me on this π also, my other family member like my aunty always remind me do not become a lawyer. I don't know why, but it makes sense because many lawyers died because have been killed. Yeah, I'm scared about that too. And I know that was my mom's biggest fear and me too! Then I know why my mom is really against me on this because she knows, I'm going to be a top lawyer soon if I really become a lawyer definitely many people try to bring me down. On top of that, I agree with them for the sake of my safety, and actually, I am doubting myself if I enter this profession because I easy to cry if someone scream or yelling or something like talking to me on a high note πso starting here, I try to explore what my heart really wants, specifically what my SITUATION want, not what I like.
When I started exploring myself and follow my heart, I realized, I really want to be respected, I love attention, I love selling, promoting, teaching others, styling, being a leader, and many more positive things. So every time when I teach my friends and my little brother, I realize my potential and the ability that I have I can be an educator soon and that's why I'm taking a degree in education now, hoping to be a lecturer soon.